I have been....so inactive on here.

And dear gods, I now hate myself for it.

Last January, some of you might remember, I came back form a quite long hiatus. I'd had a few computer and Internet issues, but I was back and ready to go. Ready to reconnect with old friends, ready to post all the art I'd done...stuff like that.

Or...so I thought. About a month after I returned, I stopped using DA and MSN for months.For about six months, in fact; I just checked my computer's calendar.

The few of you who really care might ask: why? Why this second long hiatus?

To which I'd have to answer...who the hell knows?

At first, it was computer problems again. My laptop's display suddenly stopped working like it should have, and I had to use my girlfriend's computer almost all the time -- which cut down my Internet time by a lot. She and I both needed it for college-related work, so I couldn't hog it all the time.

But at the beginning of summer, that was fixed. Dell came and repaired my computer, and that's when I should have started using DA and talking to certain friends again. I should have, but for reasons even I can't place, I didn't.

Or...was there ever really a reason? As I'm sitting here trying to force myself to come up with one, I really can't. There was absolutely no reason I should have stopped getting on to talk with my friends, absolutely no reason to stop posting art here.

The only thing I can think of? Shame. Shame at having let down people once more by not getting on for months. And the only thing I could think of to do was to ignore it even further, and to run away. But...that's never going to solve anything. I can't just ignore my failure to get on and talk to people I considered good friends, which is really the most important thing here (and the one I feel the most shame about).

The short of it all? There are some people -- important people -- I would like to reconnect with. And though, as another friend put it, I've grown apart from DA as a whole, I would still like to post my art here and be an active member. I mean, why not? I have a working laptop, I have steady Internet access, and now, I have time -- so why not return to the site I first posted artwork on, five years ago?

And why not try to befriend those I care about again? I feel sick when I think about how I've ignored these people, and for no reason.

So now? That's going to change. You may not believe me when I say I'm back, and that's okay. I'd understand, since I said the same thing once before and it proved false.

But I definitely intend to be back for good.

(If you think this sounds melodramatic, STFU and let me pretend this is LiveJournal, 'kay? XD)

Rules:
First 10 to comment on this journal requesting a slot will get 3 pieces from their gallery featured by me. I will choose the pieces I like best. In return, those deviants featured will have to create their own feature journal placing me in the first slot. Leading to a total of 10 featured deviants.

Well, there you have it. X3 I'll add people as they ask to be added.

...I hope someone comments on this. XD

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[link] - Even if this weren't of me, I'd say Elaine's done a great job here. I know it must have taken AGES to go through and make sure the individual hairs were cut out. o_O
[link] - It really does look like it's dancing. X3 I like the sense of movement.
[link] - Not sure exactly why I like this...maybe the contrast of the red on the black just appeals to me somehow. It's difficult to capture fireworks well, but Elaine did it great.

Well, technically there was just a two-hour delay, but for one reason or another all my teachers canceled class.

So yay.

I'm on a computer lab computer right now, but I'm about to go back to my room. I should get my new charger today, though~

Blech, I'm having computer issues. Sooo I probably won't be online this weekend, as I said I would be. =_= Basically, my charger died, and...I don't really have much charge left. I get a new one Tuesday, so I have to save this.

I'm really sorry, guys. D= (This is aimed at my MSN friends, who I promised I'd be online for this weekend... >_> )

I've been rather busy here at college. (Well, that's an understatement.) And thus, I've ignored DA a little.

BUT NO MORE. I hereby announce that I am fully back~

I have been doing art in the time since I last posted. And so, I'll be posting eveyrthing (well, not literally) that I did in the break. X3 At least, I'll post the highlights.

Stuff's happened, but I haven't really changed. XD I've just gotten better at drawing an' stuff. (Which is always yay.)

...Let's see who remembers my existence and comments. =3